"before..."

before I was a
mother,
i never wondered
if it would be as perfect
as I dreamed...

I would love without measure,
patiently wait,
fiercely defend....

before I was a wife...
I never dreamed I would
lose my temper,
mope,  sulk,
dissolve into tears,
regret, remorse,
a sea of love...

before I was a woman...
I was certain
the world was my oyster,
my dreams were attainable,
my hopes inconquerable,
my promise within reach...

before....

now I am a
mother,
a wife,
a woman....

and I know what it
means to live suspended...groundless...

I have discovered
the value of not knowing,

the joy of uncertainty,

the sweetness of mercy,

the amazingness of grace,

the uncharted waters,

the serendipity of
Spirit