"Just a little bit awkward..."

"We have to dare
to be ourselves,
however frightening
or strange
that self
may prove to be.”

- m. sarton


I used to want
you to know
the me
I wanted
to be for you...
but
wasn't.

I lived to
be loved
for
something I
had never been,
and might never,
ever
be
no matter how hard
I tried...

All the while,
I was
judging and
rejecting the
me I was:

fallible,

uncertain,

goofy,

bookish,

simple,

shy,

sometimes,
somewhat
confused,

and always
just a
little bit
awkward...

But
I
really
kind of
like her

I just never thought
you would.

She has a charm
that I deprived
you of
knowing,
by always
wanting her to
be so much
more...

I am sorry
for
both of
us.

I will bring
her
with me
next time...

I
promise